Embriagada

 Embriagada 

I came into this concert with the expectation to meet God.  A place where I could let my guard down and worship the Lord without bars or holding back. 

We sat a few rows from the stage. I didn’t want to be distracted by friends I saw there. I have been cautious of myself. Me myself and God. 

A situation with my daughter is affecting me because I am not able to see her.  But I feel her pain, her anger, and her disappointments.  She is like a flower dying in front of me and I am not able to do anything in the natural world.  I had decided not to talk to her not because I didn’t want to but because I am trusting God for her and her family. 

Tonight is all about me and the worship.  I love #mercyme.  For the last 20 years, their music has been my refuge and strength. The Lord used their music to bring solace, peace, and hope to my soul.  Tonight, I won’t be disappointed. 

As the worship continues I started to feel dizzy.  I am drinking some water thinking I may be dehydrated I continue the worship.  I feel hot and sweaty, I continue on, I came to meet Jesus here today. 

The concert is almost finished, and the dizziness continues. How am I to drive home? So I asked the Lord, what is this?  I feel drunk,  I heard people getting drunk in the Spirit, and to my imagination comes pictures of myself being drunk and acting stupid. I don’t like that word. Give me another word Lord, trying to find another word I said the word in Spanish Borracha, the same happened this time, I had a picture of my uncles and family all being drunk and acting stupid. Still don’t like that word. 

I am asking the Lord to help me, I still had to drive home. To all this my husband doesn’t know anything yet as we made it home, I needed to find out another word, and a Spanish song came to mind,  the word Embriagada surfaced in my spirit. 

I looked up the word to find out the meaning 

• losing yourself 
• Drinking too much off
• Captivated
• Fascinated 
• Ecstatic. 

I like what I am reading, yes for the 1st time in my life I was able to let myself go. Lose myself completely by drinking too much of His presence. I was captivated by His presence.  I came thirsty and He filled me up by bringing me under and pulling me out, then I found a song “sumerge en tu presencia “ which I had been playing for weeks now.  

When we come to God with expectancies in our hearts, He will meet us there. 

This concert will forever be in my memories for I came thirsty and the Lord gave me the living waters to drink. 

Ivette Diaz-Yee 

#mercyme concert.